2007 started off promising, but failed to live up to the expectations that 2004 and 2005 promised. I'm thinking now about Labor Day at this time ten years ago. Some of my mom's meds were failing, and she wasn't in great mental shape, so we had to put her in the hospital. One of the symptoms was that she kept falling down. She fell down while she was at the hospital, so the mental hospital transferred her to a regular hospital. My father, sister, brother-in-law, and I went to visit her. I seem to remember people at the hospital trying to ask some questions about my mom's mental history. My sister, being the oldest child, was best equipped to answer these questions, but as you might remember, she had Multiple Sclerosis, and her memory seemed to be going at this point, so she wasn't good for answering the questions. Later on, I went to a coffee shop, and remember being really lonely.
My mom got better, really only getting mentally sick one time after that in 2010. Everything else seemed to go downhill after that though, especially when my sister had her seizure at the end of November, eventually leading to her death on January 1st, 2009. 2007 was pretty terrible, but I did at least have a job that I kind of liked, and I liked most of the people that I worked with.
It's 2017, and here I am, sitting at a coffee shop, lonely. I realized when I turned 40 last year that I will always and forever be a social reject. I've discovered recently that dying from loneliness is an actual thing. And while I like some of my coworkers, I hate my job. Not to mention that I carry some spite for some of the people who get to work in my old department, mostly because I'm there when they get there, and I'm still there when they leave. I applaud anyone who left or got canned from that department and managed to move on, because I'm still having trouble figuring out where to go work-wise from here.
