So, what is new in my world, you might ask? Well, my dad was in the hospital a few weeks ago. He had some fluid surrounding his heart. They drained the fluid, and he's been feeling a little better since, but the doctors are only giving him a few months to live if he doesn't start doing dialysis, and have even suggested hospice care. Granted, his kidneys have been failing for about three years now, and they didn't expect him to live this long without dialysis. My dad is more concerned about my mom, as are my brother and I. She has two kinds of dementia along with a mix of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. Her memory was never great, but now it's pretty much shit, and she will not be able to live alone when dad dies. My brother and I tried to get them to get some of their affairs in order so we're not all totally fucked when dad dies, but, and I can't think of a better way to say this, they're being kind of stupid about it.
One thing I know is that I will have to move back into their house at some point.
I get the impression from people who don't know me as well as they think they do* that I can't stand being alone, ever. I love being alone a lot of the time, but it really helps my mood to be able to have one-on-one in person interaction with someone who is not a coworker or family member at least once a week. I've been having a really rough time getting used to the idea of someone who I could count on spending time with about once a week or every other week no longer being as accessible to me. We still talk, but we haven't hung out in over a month, and it's been Hell for me. It sucks hard enough trying to find a replacement for things that are irreplaceable, like a favorite business that closed, or a favorite product that has been discontinued.
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